Search for Sardines

寻找沙丁鱼

           Abstract：To seek ( look for, search) is a matter of much difficulty because you have had too much; but actually, to seek is very easy, it depends on how you do by the present. To seek is a process, a moment of the free breath that you let the soul feel. What a word of SEEK! It implicates the true meaning of life. And the education, or the research….what you do for life  is to SEEK, isn’t ?

    突然取消到办公室加班的主意，打算试一把“Sardines au pourpier”，一道菜。我把它翻译成中文叫做“生灵沙丁”（原意是“沙丁鱼在马齿苋中”）。

Big Chef 的作品

        Pourpie是一种植物（见下图），学名“马齿苋”，奶奶称它为“马生菜”。《本草经集注》曰：“马齿苋，又名五行草，以其叶青，梗赤，花黄，根白，子黑也。”马齿苋是古籍上早有记载的对人类有贡献的野菜，中国民间又称它为“长寿菜”、“长命菜”。药用价值极大。

    我的Big Chef 给了我他的烹制秘方，把两种看似那么弱小、普通的生命的“结合”描写得像诗一样押韵、优美。我明白这份秘方并非只是一个烹制程序。好了，感动于秘方行文的优美和图片的轻灵，我打算续写“马生菜”的恬淡篇章。不仅把它用在课堂上来改变欧洲人对植物的看法，也首先用它来转变自己对眼下生活的感受。我答应他要照方试一下，并把自己的作品拍照、描述后寄给他。

    我从美食家身边领悟到少许食的哲学。

    法式菜非常讲究搭配，尤其是形和色的搭配。但是，要是论及营养和味道的搭配，当属中国菜。如果改良一下，法式菜的形色+中国的营养美味，那如何呢？已经尝试过沏茶。通过正交试验法，寻找最佳水温（95摄氏度），按照法式沏茶的程序，把中国的乌龙加上法国的薄荷，配出来的茶味道最佳。哈哈.....轮到我值日的Tea Time已经成为队友们最期待的时间了。

    也许事物的“生命力”之最深刻的内涵，就在于搭配吧！这一点至少在系统科学上可以讲得通。

    今天打算开始做沙丁鱼的试验。我先去买沙丁鱼。但是挨着个儿转遍了TAIPA的每家超市，也没有发现沙丁鱼。

    到哪里可以找到沙丁鱼？

    再次回到“百佳”。在冰柜架上再次将所有的鱼辨认一遍。还是没有找到我要的沙丁。

    我围绕着“百佳”食品柜转来又转去，心里在想着沙丁。

    也许我进入了盲区，应该换个视角，先从“沙丁”中走出来。于是去喝早茶。来到我常来的那家茶餐厅，点了火腿芝士治，和一杯奶茶。今天的芝士治特别好吃，松软却不失柔韧，甜淡而又夹着清香。为什么？我就仔细观察手中的芝士。原来是面包外表有一点独特处理，去掉了面包皮；仔细嚼一下包片，做到这般柔软，那一定是出自Macau的厨艺，可以品出少量的牛奶和蜂蜜的味道。

    是的，我无法找到别国的沙丁，但我可以找到它之外的许多！

    回到百佳的食品柜前，带着另一种目光重新审视各种鱼。它们也很漂亮( 很普通，很便宜 )。我选中了一盒处理好的三文鱼和一条百花鲈。同时菜谱已经在脑中形成。非常简单——就是给寿司改良——把生姜压榨出汁，滴少量米醋，搅拌成在一起，而后淋浇在米饭上（有助于盖住三文鱼的腥味），用烤紫菜裹起米饭，上面盖上一小片三文鱼，夹上自己喜欢的任何小菜或配料成为一小卷。当然，还要做一小碟外蘸的汤汁：芥末膏（或者“海天”豆瓣酱）+生抽+黄酒+香油。成了！

xinning改良的寿司作品

    找——很难，因为你已经拥有了太多；找——其实也很容易，就看你如何对待当前。找——就是一个过程，一个让自己的心灵感受自由之息的瞬间。

    好一个“找”字，蕴含了生活的真谛。还有，所谓的教育、研究....就是在“找”，对吗？！

       To seek ( look for, search) is a matter of much difficulty
      because you have had too much;
      but actually,
      to seek is very easy, it depends on how you do by the present.
     To seek is a process, a moment of the free breath that you let the soul feel.
     What a  word of SEEK!
     It implicates the true meaning of life.
     And the education, or the research…. what you do  for life
     is to SEEK,
     isn’t ?

The First Meal at My Home in Macau

摘要：创作的精髓并不在于创作物本身，而在于寓居于生活中的灵动；语言的诀窍并不在于语言本身，而在于跟谁在一起；快乐的本质不在于喜形于色，而在于：Never Lost the Wonder and the Inquisitiveness.

今天是周日，7月26日，是我来澳门工作一个月纪念日，我给自己做了一顿午餐以示小庆。这也是来澳门后第一次为自己cook的 一顿午餐。看看，还不错吧。今天做饭的时候，很快乐，很享受，也是来澳门第一次真心的快乐…..也开始想，需要重新认识一下自己。

本来打算去澳大图书馆，继续完成那些乏味的概念的界定，余暇活动、选修、必修、评核……澳门的特殊性已经没有办法照搬那些老套的表述，需要去造….

其实创作的精髓并不在于创作物本身，而在于寓居于生活中的灵动；是的，还没有办法让自己喜欢这通则般的“闪”；我还是渴求能够找到那变化中的“静”。我想，应该可以找到，美食便是一个，当然，我是指要享受创作美食的过程。

然后，应该是语言了。广东话对我来说，就是一门外语，不过我有学习英语、法语和西班牙语的经历，深知：语言的诀窍并不在于语言本身，而在于跟谁在一起。呵呵，我首先要去爱他们。我觉得，我可以做到，当然也必须做到。还有，其他许多东西有待寻找……..

快乐的本质不在于你是否喜形于色，而在于：Never lost the wonder and the inquisitiveness.

当然，有一种决定生活品质的关键要素不是找到的，而是在各种体验中涌现的，那就是the determined。

我给自己做的第一顿饭

我的餐厅

Big River presented me a birthday gift, a piano, at the special time:  one hour before the Olympic Games of Beijing, August 8 of the year 2008.

Aug.28, I met my piano tutor and began my formal course for piano. my tutor is a young lady, her teaching was very fast, I could not catch up. The satff is too difficult for me, maybe  because my prior experience in numbered musical notation has interfered my new learning.

After I came back home, I practised again and again according to the instructions of tutor, difficult.....the staff and the actions in concert....

learning to learn piano, not only a new ways for entertaining myself, but challenge for my present life.

身体是革命的本钱——终于领悟到这句话的含义。所以，又开始了行动。连日来的记述有些"boring "。

我的老朋友不时地在诘问：What is your pleasure today? What will be a little pleasure for yourself ? Take time only for you please!

He is a Big Man in the area of Learning Sciences. I am not able to find any reasonable excuse to refuse his advice, so I should accept even though it is hard to me to take any other’s similar opinion on me.  

So I am trying to look for pleasure only for myself, perhaps only a while.

Today, I bought a little gen-seng at a Chinese medicine shop. Then I began to spend time on making special and nutritious tea-soup for myself, companying by a piece of music. It was enjoyable, and it let me calm down without thinking anything, pure and peaceful. In this air of “tea”, I nosed that smell of the special grass, a sort of faint scent, pleasant. It led me to mind a French perfume---Cacharel, which is my favorite brand. Somebody says that its scent is suitable for me and thinks I can express its characteristics properly. Somebody does not agree, and says it is too faint and less charming. But till now I have not found any substitute of it. So it has been my intimate body care and mood care all the time. I like it because of it is light, faint, simple, natural, and it does not usurp a woman’s real taste, it can help a woman to present herself in her real style. So it can let me easy and need not to disguise. In a word, it makes “I am me”.

Today’s tea scent brought me to find-back a pleasure in my mood. I like that smell of grass, root, that smell of being unsophisticated.

假如生活欺骗了你 
不要悲伤 不要心急 

忧郁的日子里须要镇静 
相信吧 快乐的日子将会来临 

心儿永远向往着未来 
现在却常是忧郁
 
一切都是瞬息 
一切都将会过去
 
而那过去了的 
就会成为亲切的回忆 

-------普希金-------

When the night has come 
And the land is dark 
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
No, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me

......

     In history, rose has represented ardor and impulse of heart's-blood, represented chastity and nicety as well as love, wisdom and sublimity……all of what the whole human-bings highly praise have been compared to rose. Rose, the beautiful name, is used to extol numerous miracles which people may experience in their lives, whether he/she is in the east or the west. 

     I like rose, not only because of her rich meanings, but her sincere and unsophisticated nature. She is common.

The Time of Yearning for Home, Mom...... 

      Tomorrow is the "mid-autumn festival", which is one of the most importantly traditional festivals of China. It is a day of family reunion. Children, wherever they are, will be back home to stay with their parents, nestling in Mama's arms.

     I received well-wishing from my son today, and like him, I miss my Mom very much. But I have no any courage to let my Mom hear my voice comforting her, only because I ve no any energy to keep my bright saying without any lump in my throat.....especially while I do not feel very comfortable in these days ...... One way I can chose is to ask my husband as well my son to convey my regards to her......

      I ve longed for festivals when I ve been home for I can be off office  and not have myself got-up, since home is a safe and simple Eden where I can be a raw myself......

     I ve found myself in being afraid of such festivals now, however, for I ve become increasingly miss those persons, esp. my family, who I ve not seen for a long time. Festivals have been becoming afflicters.

    Everything, in front of me, is blurry for the lost of glasses and  suffering from old eye-disease succedently. So I have more time to think than to read, then this family festival becomes a simply hard time. I am not able to see my mother with my eyes, not more than unclear look at photos with my poor sights. One thing I can do well, at this moment, is only to think, to miss, to pray......by my heart.

You are roses in my heart

-----thanks on special day

Originally, I did not think somebody could remember my birthday,

and hoped nothing of gift.

I chose to travel to congratulate.

 

However, I know,

I am a happy person.

I have been given too much around the day.

 

I want to express my thanks,

However,

I can not find a right way.

At this moment,

Words can not work well, anyway….

 

I have been deeply affected by those special gifts from Shanghai

by:

Wang Mei,

Wang Ru,

Liu Lihua,

Zhu Junfeng

He Mei,

 

I thank each of them,

who keep me youth blood and I think very much….

 

Also,

I thank Fan PH,

who accompanied me to spend the special day at Flunch in Paris……

 

I thank Pilar,

who gives me an exotic family……

 

I thank J and C,

who always create romantic, happiness and love……

 

And,

I thank my mother, my father,

who blesses me the great day…….

 

I know to say nothing properly……

You are roses in my heart, only.

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

The Blue of Lausane Before Rainstorm

                        雪山·人家·孩子

离开让我倾心的湖水，

热心的Oliver驱车带我走进大山。

当我站在这神奇的银色世界里，

天哪，那正是我梦中的憧憬！

我发现，原来我骨子里真正喜欢的竟然是山的品格，

我似乎找到了那个我一直在寻找，但又一直又无法确定的我！

我想开怀大喊，我更想放声高唱！

萧萧松涛似乎听懂了我的心声，忽起一阵齐声欢歌！

大山将我凝固，松涛将我定格。

 

 

我觉得我实在太奢侈了，

怎能独享这世间的天伦?

我在寻找……

我一直朝着太阳往前走。

我能感觉到，

雪山，正展开无际的双臂，

让我走进她那安全而棉暖的怀抱。

 

 

瞧，那里有一户人家，是一桩木屋！

一条handsome的黑犬向我奔来，

我竟然没有像往常一样吓得魂不守舍！

它跑到我的面前，蹲下，很绅士地看看我，

而后像迎接主人一样欢快地吻着我被雪覆盖的双脚。

 

 

大山欢迎我！

我，原来是山的孩子！

    冰峰、雪原与苍松，

   此时正洋溢出浓浓的亲情，

   将山的孩子温柔地裹抱。

 

 

   山的孩子，未会走路就会滑雪，

   襁褓中的婴儿已经感受了雪上滑行。

   山的孩子，总是有一双很易辨认的眼睛，

   清澈、含羞而又坚毅，

   无论他们长到多大年纪，

   看看那双眼睛，便知道他/她来自大山。

 

 

   雪山，造就了这独特的世代相传方式，

   看到他们，

   任何言语都显得多余，

   拥有的只是心灵的感动……